Monday, April 27, 2009

Trying to figure out my new role.....

So here it is my baby (all 6' of him) is going home (Texas) this week and I have to say I am a little lost. Don't get me wrong I am very excited for him as he begins this next phase of his life, but I just had not planned on what I would be doing at this point. As strange as that sounds I just did not plan on what I would want to be doing and even if I had I am sure in would not have been here in Egypt. Maybe I did and that explains why I am so lost. I miss the family I worked for and the work that I did for them but I am happy not to be working at this point its nice to not to have to work right now.

I have not made a secret about being post menopausal, and while I looking back can see that the changes started well over a year ago I feel I have just in the last few months gotten it some what under control.

Which brings me back to that my children are grown and I am at 42 trying to find what my path will be. I am in Egypt and for the first time since my babies were toddlers I am not working. Wow no wonder I am so taken aback by this.

I guess it's just a time for reflection and find where my path will lead me. Have I said how very blessed I have been.

1 comment:

Deborah said...

As a woman who hasn't had children yet (at age 30), I can't say that I understand how you feel. But I do remember how disconcerted and lost I felt when I first quit my full-time job in order to prep for and then implement our move to Egypt. I'll be praying that God will show you His purpose for your life during this new phase. If you want to get out of the house for a while, email me at ReflectionsFromMaadi(AT)gmail(DOT)com. We can get together for coffee or something.